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wow it has been 4 months since i had wrote here on my journal.
Since 2020 came in there are a lot of fcking fckery happened in the whole world, i just felt so betrayed because I rooted for 2020 so much because 2019 wasnt that good as well, I was super hopeful but everything crashed down. I am super depressed rn to the point i really want to end it. I am lost, I am a mess.
March 31, today was supposedly our flight to Seoul, It had been super surreal for me because it is one of my dream travel destinations , I was supposedly experience Cherry Blossom on my birthday because our trip to Seoul was until the 6th of April and according to the forecast April 5 is the full bloom of Cherry Blossoms which is my BDAY!!!!!!!!!!!
I was super hopeful and excited because We will celebrate my bday in Korea aside from that mhy parents finally approved my plead that I will resign in my current Job because I am not happy and It is not my passion that it always became a toxic and roots of my depression. I am finally gonna start prioritizing my Photography business, Liptint Business and Perfoming Arts Business.
but now all of these plans and dreams are ruined because of the fcking virus because we cannot longer travel to Korea because of the lockdown and travel ban and our business is on its grey side because after this pandemic business will have a big aftermath so my parents asked me to not "resign" on my job which is super frustrating and we will no longer push through our travel since the savings we saved up will not suffice the travel expenses anymore.
EVERTHING IS SO FUCKED UP.
its always like this and it makes me think that I always am the Jinxed fairy.
when it's always related to me or anything that has to do with me, it will led to something like this its as if telling me i am not gonna be happy, i dont deserve it or i am never bound to experience happiness.
I AM A MESS, I AM SO DEPRESSED.
I AM INDEED UNLUCKY BITCH
I AM INDEED A JINXED FAIRY.
FCK MY LIFE
Since 2020 came in there are a lot of fcking fckery happened in the whole world, i just felt so betrayed because I rooted for 2020 so much because 2019 wasnt that good as well, I was super hopeful but everything crashed down. I am super depressed rn to the point i really want to end it. I am lost, I am a mess.
March 31, today was supposedly our flight to Seoul, It had been super surreal for me because it is one of my dream travel destinations , I was supposedly experience Cherry Blossom on my birthday because our trip to Seoul was until the 6th of April and according to the forecast April 5 is the full bloom of Cherry Blossoms which is my BDAY!!!!!!!!!!!
I was super hopeful and excited because We will celebrate my bday in Korea aside from that mhy parents finally approved my plead that I will resign in my current Job because I am not happy and It is not my passion that it always became a toxic and roots of my depression. I am finally gonna start prioritizing my Photography business, Liptint Business and Perfoming Arts Business.
but now all of these plans and dreams are ruined because of the fcking virus because we cannot longer travel to Korea because of the lockdown and travel ban and our business is on its grey side because after this pandemic business will have a big aftermath so my parents asked me to not "resign" on my job which is super frustrating and we will no longer push through our travel since the savings we saved up will not suffice the travel expenses anymore.
EVERTHING IS SO FUCKED UP.
its always like this and it makes me think that I always am the Jinxed fairy.
when it's always related to me or anything that has to do with me, it will led to something like this its as if telling me i am not gonna be happy, i dont deserve it or i am never bound to experience happiness.
I AM A MESS, I AM SO DEPRESSED.
I AM INDEED UNLUCKY BITCH
I AM INDEED A JINXED FAIRY.
FCK MY LIFE
